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« on: January 12, 2014, 02:20:35 am »
It was the ninth week and the sixty-third night she had pretended to be asleep in the grass. Hands clasped the edges of her sleeves and pulled her arms in close to her curled up body, then balled into trembling fists. No longer could she smell the thick damp scent of the grass that covered these hills; nor could she smell the pungent bark of the trees lining the clearing they had made their camp. Even with her nose right up to the ground she could not smell the wet dirt beneath her still, cold body.

This was the longest she had gone without feeding.

Her throat burned in its rawness, metallic eyes alive in the darkness. She could smell nothing but the blood that ran through their immortal bodies; immortal blood which she craved from being close with it for weeks. They traveled best at night, when she could come out. During the day she was the weakest with only the Wizard’s spells to protect her pale skin from the deadly sunlight. They hadn’t seen much sun the entire nine weeks; rain loved this country but Juliette was most thankful for the thick dark thunderclouds.

She had never had these thoughts before. Not until the day she became this way. Never had she looked upon human blood with such a desirable urge. The first time she fed had been the start of an addiction. Before then, she did not behave monstrously, she didn’t imagine the way human flesh broke so easily from the pressure of her fangs. The woman she was before would have looked upon this new woman with disgust and terror.

That woman had been lovely and polite with a wit that had somehow managed to stick around even after her own tragedy. She had been the youngest of a wealthy family, the only girl after four boys. Somehow she remained soft and feminine, despite being smothered by brothers. Mother had said she was a gift to the Valerian family, and insisted that if she were to play with the boys, it would be inside. They were to be gentle with her, she had always been delicate and doll like, with wide amber eyes and rosy skin, sprinkled with freckles like sugar, just like all of the Valerians.

It was the over protectiveness of her parents and brothers that would lead to her fall. Juliette was rarely allowed out on her own. She desired to be with people, but would daily remain in her bedroom. A boy that sold her mother broth had smiled at her in the market, and the next time they went by, she had slipped him a letter. Juliette would have never known that the very temptation of sin would come from a boy so young and poor. Evil hid in the most unexpected places, deceiving those who fell easily for its tricks. She was twenty when she was bitten, and twenty when she lost any form of conscious control. Now frozen in her youth, she was a one-year-old vampire and very aware of her cravings. Based on the tales, it usually took decades for a newborn blood-sucker to ignore their thirst. And it had been nine weeks.

Air was swallowed and she ran her tongue over the points of each cursed molar in her mouth. If she could just have one taste, she would make it last for days. If there was some way the seven could have continued through to wood and into the farmlands she would have been silent and quick- done before anyone knew she had been missing…the vampire was all too content with keeping to herself.

The trees rustled with a light wind. Another shower would come soon. Juliette could almost taste the scent that bounced through the trees at her. Somewhere less than a mile off was a human and a horse. Juliette licked her lips, tucking her hands beneath the amethyst cloak, eyes darting through the dark spaces between the trees. She could easily sneak away. None of them would hear a thing; she was noiseless even in her clumsiest movements.

She lifted her head quietly, sitting up partially so that she could crane her neck at the others’ still sleeping bodies. She noticed the winged one, Amina, sitting off alone, awake with her back to the others. Without a sound, Juliette escaped from the clearing and disappeared into the trees.

It was easiest to travel by the branches. Her footsteps were light and didn’t shake the leaves. She was limber and athletic, built like a nocturnal predator. Her body flexibly crouched and climbed. The closer she found herself, the thirstier. Juliette’s vision soon became red, and it took only minutes for her to find the horseback traveler. He was alone, making that last stretch before he reached town. The sound of the wind in her cloak, and the shocked neigh of his steed would be the only thing he heard before she pounced from the shadows.
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« Reply #1 on: January 12, 2014, 08:22:53 am »
Rain was no friend to the feathered companion of the resting group. Her feathers had grown too heavy to allow flight numerous times. The stillness of the night was a pleasant relief. She stood vigil with a calmer mind because of that simple fact.

Yet, she was always alert. She sat then, perched in one of the trees, quiet and still. She hadn’t moved in half an hour, and tended to take such shifts, moving only when necessary. Her senses were good, though one couldn’t deny her sight was best. Amina bat El was a creature of light, after all. What few realized was that did not mean she was simply ‘good’, not a mere ‘enlightener’. Light was her weapon, channeled into energy she could manipulate at a whim.

People who spoke of peaceful angels didn’t know them. When He wanted something done, He sent an angel. Though the delivery of messages was an act performed, just as often, He wanted something smote. That was the duty Amina was set to perform, the reason she was with this group. It baffled her, if she were honest with herself. That was becoming more and more common—time to think, to be introspective, allowed her too much time to wonder why He didn’t just send a few of His angels to get rid of this.

It’d be so easy, or that was what Amina told herself.
‘He has a plan.’

It was something she would not doubt. Somehow, that plan also involved a life-stealing fiend. That was the main reason the angel stood vigil so close, too. Her.

Not once did Amina look back as she caught the flicker of movement out of the corner of her eye. Her body had been positioned just to keep that one in her sights.

Not once did she look to confirm it, lest she give herself away to the creature who dwelled in darkness.
‘Fool.’ As if she hadn’t dealt with this kind before. As if she didn’t know this would, eventually, happen. Amina was only grateful the wretched creature knew better than to try to drink from her other companions.

Amina counted. When certain of her own ability to capture silence, she stood on the branch, and shot up into the sky. It would rain soon, but right now she’d use her flight to her advantage. She was quicker, unhindered by the trees. She could also move without being heard from high up, and her vision would help her keep track of the one moving in the trees. It was easy to tell what she was after, too; the lone traveler on his horse would, indeed, be an easy target.
‘Careful.’

Caution still had to be used. It would not be good to strike if she were wrong, though Amina did not think it so. Options flew through her head. She had a bow, could notch an arrow and snipe the vampire from on high.
‘No.’ It seemed wrong, somehow. Again, the thought of His plan came to mind. She might not understand it, might question it, but it involved this group…this…thing.

A part of Amina hoped that the vampire would not do as she feared. Of course, that hope was proven to be in vain as the sound of the horse’s neigh broke through the quiet night. She couldn't even feel disappointment. It was what she expected, after all.

Amina’s wings lifted, and her drop from the sky was quick. No point in hiding her presence. She was aglow, but most of that energy was channeled to her right hand which contained it in an orb as her feet touched the ground.
“Let him go, now.” There would not be a second command.
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« Reply #2 on: January 14, 2014, 04:46:59 am »
He was probably a husband, someone’s father, and someone’s son. Maybe he was a fisherman; they usually went to sea around this time. A provider of nourishment for his family; he was now the prey of the woman above him, and somehow he was perplexed by the rich moonlight against her porcelain skin, wild burgundy hair that fell long and tickled his lips and cheeks. She gazed erotically down at him and inhaled the fear and lust in the scent of his blood. Her eyes closed and she leaned closer. It would be over soon…

The lone traveler had been strong, but Juliette’s spell was stronger. She pinned the man to the wet ground, the pounding of his heart only echoed in her ears, pulsing veins tempting her even more. She could feel herself trembling, trying its hardest to resist, but her body would not oblige. Juliette was inches from his jugular, her hands gripping the man’s shoulders tightly. He was no longer able to fight against her. She looked down at his pleading eyes.

Gold eyes closed shut tight as the wordless pleads reached her. She couldn’t fight herself; she was too thirsty…”I’m so sorry.” She whispered as she ran a cool hand over his cheek, but before Juliette could bite, the bright glow of the angel covered her. It was startling, and she looked up at Amina in astonishment. Her hands shook and she released the man without hesitation, unable to look away from the celestial creature. Juliette swallowed dryly, but did not make any moves as the man slowly stood, perplexed by the angel’s glow.

“No…”

Amina had not trusted the vampire from the moment they’d met. Juliette was used to hatred and fear, but this was different. Amina did not fear her. Why? She was dangerous, despicable. The entire group was wary of her, and she didn’t blame them, they should be afraid. Her eyes were wet, but the vampire narrowed her gold orbs towards Amina. She was a creature made for good, and Juliette was the evil. She was ashamed but defensive, furious that this winged and righteous creature had chased off her meal.

She looked down at her hands, unable to stop the shaking as she desperately turned and watched the man back away from her and mount his horse. Juliette felt her body collapse in defeat and she clenched her quivering fists, slamming them into the ground. There was a current of fury and shame overlapping within her. She wanted to fight back, but a part of her was relieved.

Juliette held back sobs as the gentle raindrops seemed to convey her sorrow. What a clever God. She slowly sat up, looking to the winged woman before her, unsure of what to say. She knew what the angel was thinking, surely the very same thing God would. Angels were obligated by command to do his works. Juliette would be an easily distinguished monster, weakened and alone as a creature of shadow versus a being of light. Good always did prevail, did it not?
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« Reply #3 on: January 14, 2014, 05:08:44 am »
Amina did not move as the others did. Juliette heeded the command, something that the angel did not think would actually happen. It was ingrained in her to give warnings, to allow for a chance. She was pleased that it was, but her expression did not show it. The golden orbs hardened on her in a glare, but they were wet. Tears. That was not something Amina expected, and it washed away any pleasure she might have taken in chastising the vampire.

When Juliette turned, the glow briefly brightened. Fortunately, Juliette did not make a second attempt. Amina observed the man as he gathered his senses. She did not speak. He was smart enough to run on his own, getting to his horse and leaving at a gallop. What a story he would have to tell—he alone was picked out and protected by an angel.

The glow began to fade with the rain, allowing the darkness to fall around them. Her wings ruffled themselves in irritation at the first drops. There would be no flying again. 

Juliette was on the ground.

Amina could not leave her there.

Juliette composed herself some, straightening to sit under the angel’s cold gaze. They were not met by a glare. The last of the light vanished, leaving them with only the lightning. Both of them, no doubt, had enhanced senses to see in the dark so the light was not as necessary as it would be for humans to see. Juliette was quiet. Amina made up her own reasons for why there were tears in the silence, remembering that vampires were cunning creatures. They had to be. Their prey was quite sentient. Intelligent.
“Wipe away those crocodile tears,” Amina instructed, “They will not help your case, I care not how starved you are, you are not feeding from humans.” She wouldn’t be guilt-tripped into allowing it. If nothing else, the vampire should have understood that. Such emotions were foreign to the angel.

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« Reply #4 on: January 14, 2014, 06:13:21 am »
The darkness overcame both women again as Amina’s glow faded. Juliette was met with a hard gaze from the angel. She touched her face, doing as she was told, but not without a word back to the cold instructions, "Is that a command from God?” She asked with a quiet bite, looking to the wet ground where her fists had left indentions. Juliette was unaware she had allowed her own tears to fall, now ashamed of herself even more. Her cold hand swiped her colorless face, removing the salted moisture from under her eyes to be replaced with cold raindrops.

She avoided Amina’s judging eyes, very aware of her insinuations before she even spoke of them. Crocodile tears shed to help her get what she wanted. She would rather be struck by one of her balls of light than beg for blood from an angel. Juliette lifted her chin, unable to shake the hurt she felt. She had so many questions for God, but He never seemed to hear them or answer her. Perhaps this angel would know.

“Do you think I am a monster?” She was not asking out of sarcasm, but desperation. If she were not allowed to, then why did she? Juliette looked upon Amina, a woman with a petite frame but a very large presence. Her cornsilk hair seemed perfect, painted with the light from Heaven. Juliette felt very dim and dull at her feet. “I did not want to hurt him.” She said quietly, looking away once more. She didn’t want to be what she was.

Still, no matter what she wanted the vampire was a servant to her thirst. This angel did not understand that. No one but Juliette could understand such a feeling. She licked her dry lips and pressed them together. “I never wanted to hurt anyone.” It was then, like many times after she fed, Juliette relived every sin she’d committed, and retreated into herself. How could an angel, free of sin, feel pity for her after what she'd done?

She was a monster.

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« Reply #5 on: January 14, 2014, 06:30:12 am »
Amina didn’t so much as smirk at the comment about it being a commandment from God. Of course it wasn’t. It still bothered her that she’d think such a light command would come from On High. It was almost using the name in vain.

Almost.

Amina was quiet as the woman wiped at her tears and stood. She was about to say that they should head back to the camp when a non-rhetorical question came.
‘Yes.’ No-brainer. Yes, Amina thought she was a monster, and it was only His command that kept her alive from the start. Even demons could be put to good use now and then, she supposed.

Her eyebrows lifted at the statement. Her lips formed a cruel twist.
“No?” Her own question, her own disbelief at the statement. “Your actions say otherwise.” She was looking away, though.

Juliette added on to her initial statement. Though Amina could not see directly into her eyes now, she could read the body language. It was foreign to her, but it spoke. She had seen angels slouch, witnessed many of these patterns in those who were on the brink, on those who…questioned. That thought came to her, and for a brief moment she forgot this was not another angel when she stepped forward and touched the woman’s shoulder.

She remembered just as quickly, but did not withdraw the touch.

Pity was not what she felt. Pity was something she’d never felt, but there were now questions.
“Why do you act in a way contrary to your feelings?” Angels didn’t hunger, and certainly, did not understand vampires. Vampires were not worthy of understanding beyond the fact that they preyed upon human life and were thus evil. All other creatures in His world knew better, and only the desperate would consider humans a meal. 

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« Reply #6 on: January 14, 2014, 07:06:59 am »
The angel’s reply also surprised Juliette, and she looked up immediately. A small sign of faith, but not really as Amina seemed to argue against it. She felt her shoulders weighed down by the helplessness she felt. The vampire searched Amina’s eyes for some sort of emotion, any. Was an angel even allowed to feel anything?

Juliette agreed with Amina's statement. Her actions were sickening even to herself, but in a conscious mind when it was too late to feel guilt. She felt a sting in her eyes again, but she didn’t allow her tears to fall this time. The vampire looked off towards where the man and his horse had run off. He could now return to his children. Juliette had been a child once. She knew what it was like to have a father and a brother.

At Amina’s touch, Juliette looked back. Another person had never touched Juliette in this cursed form. Was it naïve of her to feel hope that this angel may now be trying to comfort her? The angel questioned her actions, something no one had ever done. Everyone knew what she was and why she did what she did to quench and sate her urges. They thought they knew.

“I don’t know.” She whispered to the angel before her. It would be impossible to explain something to an angel who had never questioned herself or her Master, but maybe she could try. Amina was made to obey God’s commands, and surely she believed God was just and she should. Juliette was made to obey the command of her thirst, but she had once been human, and she had once lost loved ones to death. If she had felt such things, then why would she purposefully murder so many people? “Why do you obey your God?” She asked seriously.

Her wet eyes did not leave Amina’s form. “I have no choice.” She was not certain she would believe her, but she desperately wanted her to. It was how the cravings felt. Juliette was overcome by guilt. It sounded as excuses, surely. “I slayed my parents and my four brothers…” She pressed her cold palms to her cheeks, pushing her tears away. “I have no memory of it…I just remember blood on my clothes, on my hands. Their blood.” Why was she telling this to an angel? She would surely think less of her if at all possible now.

“Amina I…I loved them so much.” Her throat was raspy as she desperately called out the angel’s name. She would surely be confused or disgusted by her. Juliette wanted to give up but she could not stop herself, “I want them back more than anything.” She hated everything she had done, but she could never forgive herself for feeding from her own loved one's necks.

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« Reply #7 on: January 14, 2014, 07:33:58 am »
It seemed the situation was as foreign to Amina as it was to the monster.

‘Who prays for Satan?’


An angel had asked her that, once.
‘Who prays for the one who needs it most?’ The angel had missed the Fallen One. He had not lasted long in Heaven, but Amina found herself now applying his question to this situation. Long ago, she had come to terms with the selfishness of humanity, understanding they were ignorant—children, compared to the angels. They prayed for their health, their wealth, and everything in between, but few spared a thought for those who did not impact their life.

None prayed for the damned.

Amina did not answer the question about serving God. There were a litany of reasons, and one different from Juliette. She had a choice to serve.
‘There are severe consequences for disobedience.’ True. ‘And there are severe consequences if she disobeys.’ Amina knew humans needed to eat. She was learning that hanging out with them, and how much they ate! It was truly astounding.

It might be true that vampires, too, needed to eat more than they wanted to eat. Amina always imagined that vampires enjoyed it the way humans did, relishing the blood as humans did wine.

Confession followed, and Amina felt awkward holding the role of priest. Was Juliette looking for forgiveness? Absolution? Amina didn’t know, but she keenly felt the woman’s sorrow.

That was what it was, wasn’t it? Not crocodile tears this time, but sorrow.
‘They are not in His plan.’ God provided for every creature in his plan, ‘And do they not all live through life?’ Yet it was wrong to live off humans, never mind that lions lived off antelopes, or wolves off sheep. There was a hierarchy.

God did not provide for vampires. They had no place in His world, and Amina had always thought it was because they were creatures which invited this fate.
“Did you not know what would happen?” Amina found herself lost with the woman’s sorrow. Perhaps she should have been sympathetic, but she was perplexed. “Did you not invite this fate upon yourself, knowing what sort of monster you would become?” Despite the hard word choice, her hand squeezed Juliette’s shoulder in a strange effort to soften the word. Unconscious, really. 

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« Reply #8 on: January 14, 2014, 07:58:53 am »
As Juliette looked desperately to Amina, she could finally realize that this angel had no experience as a human. It was not like children’s stories, when a human passed on and rose into heaven to gain their wings. She couldn’t feel Juliette’s feelings or know her thoughts. Juliette was no longer human after all; she was a vampire. Did this angel even know that the monster before her had not always been this way?

“What being…their death?” Juliette misunderstood Amina’s question at first as a consequence to her action of feeding. Of course she knew the results of draining a human being’s blood. But as the angel pried, Juliette understood, but still felt the blunt force of the word. She looked to the hand on her shoulder, then back to Amina’s face, her eyes searching for just a little understanding, desperately searching.

She was not able to hold back her emotions, and this angel seemed not to feel emotions. Juliette’s eyes squinted as they watered again, her hand not coming to brush them away this time. “Did I…want to be this way?” Juliette couldn’t imagine anyone would want to be the way she was. “Did I want to be a servant to my uncontrollable thirst for human blood?” She clutched the amethyst garment around her chest as emotional pain overwhelmed her, “Who would ever want to forcefully feed upon her own loving family?” This angel really did not understand anything, it was almost frustrating; but Juliette remembered that she was never human. “No I did not invite this fate upon myself.”

She had not done it on purpose. Juliette had been as human as anyone else when she fell for that boy in the market. How would she have known what he was? She had made a human mistake that turned her into something lower than human, lower than a beast. Juliette had fallen to the human temptation of lust, and she had been punished for it.

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« Reply #9 on: January 14, 2014, 08:08:08 am »
Pain and anger and frustration, all of these were easy to recognize. Amina had been yelled at in the past for being unsympathetic to the troubles of humans. Of course, she didn’t understand it. Amina was only ever honest. The fact that honesty hurt was a frustrating truth—if humans didn’t lie so much, it’d be fine.

So, something she had said upset the vampire. Her question had upset Juliette. Her hand flinched away as Juliette let emotions rule her.
“You did not want this?” It came as a question, but it was as much as a statement, as slow understanding began to dawn on Amina. “This was not a choice,” it had to be spoken aloud for it to compute.

Was it possible that this curse of vampirism fell on the unwilling?


‘Bad things happen to good people.’
Universal truth. Faith was tested through hardship. She knew that vampires spread vampirism to other humans, but for some reason she had always considered the human being infected wanted it. “I am sorry,” odd words, but she’d heard them used in situations akin to this, in trying to calm someone and gain information, “I do not understand,” Amina admitted, “How are you a vampire if you did not want to be one?”

What was an unwilling vampire supposed to do? Suicide was a sin, but there was no place for them in the plan. Amina’s mind grasped at straws, tried to hold resolutely to the thought that this vampire might be lying about her turn towards this monstrous fate.


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« Reply #10 on: January 14, 2014, 08:41:52 am »
She swallowed as she watched in hope as Amina confirmed with herself what she had been told. Juliette wondered how an angel could look so much like a human and not understand the emotions they had. She could feel her breathing increase as her hand removed itself from her shoulder. Was she judging her still? Humans were flawed, yes, but vampires were damned. She always knew that it was impossible for her to be forgiven.

Juliette couldn’t understand if Amina was apologizing for her suffering or for her misunderstanding of how vampirism worked. She watched the angel eagerly. No one had ever asked her questions like this. No one had ever tried to understand why she was the way she was.

“I thought…” The woman hesitated. She was afraid to tell Amina the story, as if her human flaws would make her seem even more of a monster. “When I was human I loved this man.” Her tears stopped for now, and she held her right arm against her with her left hand. She remembered it like it was yesterday. “He did not look like a vampire, but he made me this way.” That was the short version of the story. “I didn’t know I was a part of a plan.” Juliette looked to Amina sadly, “I was being used, easily tempted by a handsome face.” She shook her head angrily, uncomfortable that she was the only one that could feel emotions out of the two of them. “He made me a part of his army of monsters to corrupt the kingdom I was from. I only did what he created me to do because as a vampire, I had no other choice but to feed.”

She had wished someone would kill her many times, but she was always stronger. Her thirst would always be her defense. Juliette had contemplated suicide many times. She had no one left to miss her, but she did believe in God and knew suicide to be a sin. As much as she sinned in this form, she could control that urge at least. Now she was determined to stop this by joining this group.

“I never wanted to be this way. I just wanted to be loved by that man.” Juliette pushed her rust colored hair out of her face, looking closer at Amina. “I know you don’t understand.” She said quietly, “I’m sorry I got angry at you.” Her eyes softened, “No one understands, or wants to.” Juliette unclenched her hand from her cloak and took in a deep breath, “My heart doesn’t beat anymore, but it still hurts, and it still loves. I still feel like a human feels.” She pressed her hand against her chest, still searching Amina’s eyes, “Do you…understand that?”
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« Reply #11 on: January 14, 2014, 08:58:09 am »
All vampires had mortal existences prior to this. All mortals were flawed, and they were easily tempted. Greed, lust, pride—the list of sins went on. It would make sense for a mortal to be tempted to become a vampire, to desire it, but that was not the story Juliette told. Rather than some want of power, some desire to never die, she claimed to have fallen for a vampire. ‘Are they that hard to pick out?’ It was easy for Amina to recognize them.

The woman had been seduced and used.
‘They can be turned unwilling.’ Strange how that thought seemed to keep coming up as Juliette spoke. It put it in a new light. Certainly, He knew this. ‘I’ve never met one.’ All the ones she had met prior to Juliette were quite proud of themselves, of their state. If they hadn’t desired it, they had embraced it.

Juliette did not.

And Amina could not admit to understanding. Love, mortal love, was not something she knew or desired. The Presence was all she needed. Being in that, feeling it, seemed to make all other desires fade. What she could understand was that Juliette still felt human, even if Amina did not know what that felt like—Juliette did, and Juliette saw herself, her actions, as bad.
“I understand that,” not what it was, but that Juliette did. “You must eat to survive. Like a lion will attack a human in desperation, so will you.” It was perhaps wrong to compare the once-human to a beast, but it was the first thing that came to mind. “It is instinct and need.”

Was it need?
“Can you only feed upon humans?” Perhaps Juliette did not know. It did not sound like her sire had been concerned about teaching Juliette another way. That would have ruined his plans. ‘Note to self: find him and murder him.’ Later. When this was done. God would not mind such a detour. She would be getting rid of scum that stole from His flock.
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« Reply #12 on: January 15, 2014, 01:29:14 am »
Juliette felt as if she were watching Amina’s realization in slow motion. She anxiously waited as the angel pieced things together, the only way that someone who had never experienced human feelings could. “Yes…!” She desperately nodded as the angel compared her thirst to the starvation of a lion. “Instict.” It still sounded horrible to Juliette, but at least it was all making sense now.

The angel’s next question was something she had never thought of instead. Juliette had always just acted in desperation on instinct. When she got to a certain point it was almost as if her body moved on it’s own,  “Only feed upon humans?” She had never fed upon animals in this form. But Juliette didn’t crave animals; she craved what she had first ever tasted after being cursed in this form. “I don’t…”

This was something she’d never considered, but if it was something that could help, so many people could have been spared! Her chest tightened at the thought, and she moved to sit upon a large rock near the trail. “I don’t know…” She shook her head, looking down at her trembling hands, “I never tried anything else. I always held off on feeding until I could no longer control my body. Then it acts on its own. It picks humans because that's what it craves.” Juliette looked back up at Amina, her eyes filled with guilt and hope. It would be wonderful news if animal blood sated her the same, but also too late for the ones she had killed.

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« Reply #13 on: January 15, 2014, 01:45:54 am »
‘Never thought?!’ One of Amina’s hands balled into a fist. ‘Did you never eat animals?’ How this was not an obvious realization was baffling. Then again, hunger. Hunger, hunger, hunger. It was going to be a key word here, and Amina only understood it in theory.

Her fist relaxed. The rain was still sprinkling around them. Amina doubted it would come down any harder, but it would certainly keep many animals from leaving the safety of their shelters.
“And humans crave wine, and other substances that are not good for them,” addiction was a horrible thing, falling under the sins of gluttony and lust.

Amina approached the rock, the vampiress,
“Are you willing to try other blood or are you going to be a slave to your cravings?” The question was quite serious. Though it would be difficult to obtain a wild animal right now, Amina knew there was a town not far from here—well, at least, by her logic of ‘far’ which still based itself on flight. Livestock was human food. It could be food for vampires as well.   

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« Reply #14 on: January 15, 2014, 02:38:45 am »
Juliette’s eyes shot to the angel’s fist as soon as she sensed its movement, and she immediately felt ashamed, looking back up to her. She could only imagine what Amina was thinking, but there was no way that she would ever understand how it felt to be starving, desperate for nourishment. Did an angel have hunger? It seemed not with the way that Amina seemed to mention a human's cravings as an idea and not from her own experience. An angel was baffling as well, but she was starting to make more sense to Juliette with the way she reasoned aloud.

She looked back down to her own hands as Amina approached her, clenching them tightly. “But as a human I never experienced such a carnal desire.” Her eyes met the angel’s again, “If an animal’s blood could do the same thing for my body as human blood, I would never drink from a human’s neck again.” She said, though she still seemed unsure. Her actions were not her own, they never seemed to be when she had not fed. If feeding from an animal could give her some control over herself, perhaps her power would return and she could be of more use to this group.

“I have to try.” She whispered, clenching her hands to her body, and then looking to Amina perhaps for help. Juliette’s ears listened closely for any sound of movement in the wild. It was late, but perhaps there were nocturnal beings scurrying out this time. She could start with a bird, and if that did not help, something larger…

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« Reply #15 on: January 15, 2014, 02:49:02 am »
Whatever emotions were coursing through the vampiress were not understood well now. Clenched fists and a downward gaze. Determination, perhaps. Doubt. Having never experienced this desire before, it seemed Juliette did not think it would work. ‘And if it doesn’t?’ Amina felt her own tremor of doubt.

God had to provide these somehow. Did Juliette always have to kill when she fed? Did it always have to be on the unwilling? If innocents could be turned, God had to provide, Amina just wasn’t sure yet how this world operated to do so.


‘Do not think so far ahead. First, this.’
Juliette was willing to try. “Wait here,” Amina told her before adding quite a bit of distance between them. Quick as light, the wings unfurled, forcing the water off of them. Fluttering them threw more water away from her. Flight was the quickest way anywhere, and so the quickest way to address the situation. The rain was not coming down hard. A short flight would be manageable, but only just. The weight of the water would eventually overcome her. She’d have a greater vantage point from up high, as well. “I will be back, here.” Not the group, best Juliette stay away from them in this state.

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« Reply #16 on: January 15, 2014, 06:33:55 am »
Juliette nodded as Amina told her to wait. She hoped the angel would hurry. She was not sure how much longer she could control her urges from turning onto the group. It was dangerous for her not to feed for this long. If this worked, perhaps she could eat weekly and not be tempted every time she passed one of the group members. The vampire ran her tongue over the smooth, protruding fangs and pulled her knees to her chest. Nine weeks was her limit; she remembered the times when she could barely go a few hours.

Her gold eyes peered through the gaps in the trees, anticipating any movement from nocturnal animals. She shrunk into herself as the rain soaked her cloak and dress underneath. Idly Juliette wondered if the others were plenty sheltered in this weather. They had about half a day’s travel tomorrow until the next town, if it were even a town in this spread out land.

Her throat ached from its rawness, how could anything be so dry in this damp weather? Juliette placed a hand over her neck and rubbed gently over her cold skin. Amina would be back soon. It was good that the angel was helping her. Juliette had not expected help especially from the one who seemed to trust her the least out of the group. There was compassion in the angel, just a different kind than humans had. She could have killed Juliette long ago.

Perhaps God still loved her. Juliette was afraid to ask Amina if it could even be possible for her to be forgiven. The answer was too simple, but her human emotions clouded her own judgement. For a long time she had cursed God for letting this happen to her. She had hated him for so long, hated herself. The vampire closed her eyes and did something she hadn’t done in a long time; she thanked God for the angel.

'Just stay here… don’t leave. Do what she said.'

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« Reply #17 on: January 15, 2014, 06:49:28 am »
Amina had limited options. She did not carry money on her. She was not a thief, though. She would not simply steal an animal. ‘That leaves….’ Him. Of course. He who was dismounting from the horse besides a lit-up house, where a woman stood in the doorway, pregnant.

She could make out his voice but not the words, not at first. She let herself drop again from the sky, finding the landing a bit rougher this time. Yes, her wings really did not enjoy this.
“Excuse me,” she spoke to interrupt.

The man recognized the voice and turned around.
“You!” Bright eyes, happy. “You’re the one who saved me.”

Amina nodded,
“I—”

“Oh please, you must come in, you look cold.”


She shook her head,
“Do not worry about me, I am not so affected by temperature,” she informed him. “I do, however, need your horse. My wings are bothered by the rain.” The two had no relevance to each other, but she could make him think that. It was not a lie. ‘It is a horrible lie. Fix it.’ “There is someone who I need to reach quickly.” It wasn’t a lie.

It still didn’t feel right, but the human was not one to question,
“Of course! Any friend of you—yes, whatever you need. Is the horse all you need?”

Amina would not take more from them.
“No,” she would come back when her companions reached a town and she could acquire funds. She would pay them properly for this, so that a new horse could be procured, so that their livelihood and that of the unborn would not be hindered. “This is all. You shall be rewarded for this.”

“Thank you.”
Strange, really. Amina accepted the reins of the horse and led it away from the home. As the man vanished inside and she found herself walking on the road, she shifted herself in the saddle. She didn’t much care for the saddle, but didn’t want to waste time removing it.

“I am sorry for this,”
she told the horse, before urging it to a gallop once more. It heeded her, returning to the place where its master had fallen from it earlier, calm under Amina’s touch. Amina dismounted shortly after, and looked awkwardly between horse and vampire. “It is not…typical…but it seemed the best I could do on short notice. It is a healthy animal, well taken care of.” That should be good for the vampire. It wouldn’t be some questionable, feral thing. 

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« Reply #18 on: January 15, 2014, 07:51:04 am »
Juliette was just as heartbroken when Amina came back with a horse. She pressed her lips together, reminding herself, ‘Beggars can’t be choosers…’ The angel had gone out of her way to help her, and she was grateful. It was better than a human. She stood hesitantly, still trembling. It was embarrassing to be watched like this. But she was so thirsty. The horse’s blood was pulsing from running here. It was such a large animal, she didn’t know if she could handle its struggle in her state.

The vampire turned to Amina as she approached, “Don’t watch…please.” She said to the angel, emphasizing once more if she hesitated, “Please.” And then she turned back to the horse, taking the reigns from Amina into her hand and wrapping them around once, tightly.

“I am so sorry…” Juliette whispered, just like she had to the man before. She placed a gentle hand on the horse’s neck, stroking the soft palomino color of its coat. When she bit into the flesh, the animal instinctively reared, but Juliette was strong, pulling against the reins, not permitting the horse to overpower her. Soon, the animal collapsed, and the vampire followed it, crouching over its now deceased form. It was not the taste of human blood, but as she drank she felt stronger, and was unable to pull away.

When she did finish, crimson stained the front of her cloak, her chin and her neck. Before, Juliette may not have looked a monster, but she certainly did now. The vampire’s eyes softened, looking down at the dead horse, her hand coming to caress its flank. “I’m finished.” She whispered to Amina, turning away from the angel to avoid what might be a look disgust upon her messy appearance. “Thank you." Her voice remained at a whisper as she pressed her sleeve to her mouth, wiping the stain from her face. Her thirst was gone.

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« Reply #19 on: January 15, 2014, 08:06:16 am »
It was not a scene Amina wanted to watch. Though she hesitated, she did turn away to allow the vampire privacy in feasting. It didn’t stop her from hearing the horse’s agony. ‘This is the way of the world.’ Life needed life. Humans needed animals needed plants. The plants, too, required the life of the world around them to make them healthy. The sun alone could not sustain them.

It died, and Juliette feasted. Amina’s wings shifted, fluffing out some to make peripheral vision of the act impossible. Juliette did not leave the horse, but drank of it.
‘That is good.’ She could subsist this way. Amina bit the inside of her cheek as the thought of the addiction returned. How strong would the call of human blood be? Juliette would still need monitoring. An addiction was not defeated in a night.

Besides, animal blood might be ‘less nutritious’. Amina had no idea. The thoughts distracted her from the act until she heard the whisper. Amina nodded, but didn’t look back. She couldn’t.
“You are welcome,” she said, and made a motion towards their camp, “We should return then.”

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« Reply #20 on: January 15, 2014, 09:54:57 pm »
Juliette wished the angel would just leave her to herself, but surely she would be concerned for the others if she left a vampire unattended. It had become customary for her to prefer solitude, she couldn't hurt anyone when she was just alone. She stood as Amina mentioned returning, but not before she removed her cloak and draped it over the animal that had saved her. It was better to stay with the angel than be left alone. Amina wouldn't let her hurt anyone.

The two walked the short distance back to the camp. Juliette felt stronger as they neared the others. For now she wouldn't be tempted to feed from her companions. The rain cleaned her stained hands and face, leaving less of a trace of blood the longer they walked. Small traces remained on her chest, but soon vanished into the dark color of her dress. When they reached the camp Amina would return to her post, but would Juliette pretend to sleep?

She hesitated by her spot, and looked to the winged woman, who hadn't glanced back at her the whole walk back. Juliette then followed her to where she stayed guard. Sleep was pointless to her as to Juliette, and the vampire had some questions. "Amina...?" She folded her skirts under her as she took a seat beside the angel, making sure to leave space between them. "Why did you help me?"  

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« Reply #21 on: January 15, 2014, 10:09:30 pm »
Amina did try to avoid looking at her and the blood. Blood was nothing new to the angel, nor was spilling it, but her mind was stuck on the death. She had always understood the theory, life needs life, but there was a part of her that was arguing with it, a part that wouldn’t be quiet.

It seemed cruel, up close.

He had created beings that did not need such sustenance. She had never asked. She had never considered it a problem.

She walked easily back to the tree where she’d been before and looked up at the branch.
‘Nope.’ She was soaked through and through. It wasn’t worth it. Instead, she leaned against the bark.

She expected Juliette to return to the sheltered area where the others were laying, but instead she settled besides her. Amina looked down as she asked her question.
“You needed help,” Amina answered. It was simple, but perhaps not. “You were willing to accept it. You were willing to turn away from the monstrous act of feeding on humans. You were unwillingly changed.” Though perhaps that should not be the defining point. Humans were allowed to repent when they turned to evil. Well, most evils. There was a line where forgiveness was withheld, but murder was forgiven. That was what the vampires did, more or less.

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« Reply #22 on: January 15, 2014, 11:48:26 pm »
Juliette leaned her head against the tree as she listened to Amina, who answered as if the situation were simple to her. She nodded, pulling her knees to her chest. The coldness of the weather didn’t bother her, and the rain was a nuisance easily ignored. For now she found comfort in the presence of an angel, something odd for her, the damned.

She looked up as the rain fell through the leaves onto her face, “No one has ever tried to help me.” She managed to smile some, despite the word ‘monstrous.’ Juliette had always imagined angels as small cherubs, at least as a child. Something innocent and sweet, “And I am very grateful for that.” She noticed that Amina had a straightforward way of speaking. Juliette didn’t see a need to argue with her honesty, but she didn’t know how to ask an angel to be more polite. It wasn’t as if she deserved that. “Even..if you think I am monstrous."

Juliette propped her arms to rest against her folded knees, and leaned her head against them. The sun would be up soon and hidden behind the clouds, she could feel her posture and demeanor change drastically depending on how high it was in the sky. On gray days, it was easier to endure, and on other days, she had the Wizard's spells to aid her. "Sorry you had to go get that horse." She could still hear it's neighs and grunts, heavy breaths, "When I was human I always used to want to ride them but my mother was afraid I'd hurt myself." The vampire had to smile, even though sometimes it was painful to remember the past, it also reminded her that she was very loved before.

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« Reply #23 on: January 16, 2014, 12:43:42 am »
There was a very good reason Amina did not have ‘messenger’ duty very often. She could sense the discomfort in Juliette, but was not exactly sure what it stemmed from. A million and one possibilities came up, and were discarded as ‘none of her business’. Mortals had private worlds in their heads, and even the vampire could be considered mortal by her standards. She had once been mortal. It seemed quite a bit of that didn’t change. She still felt. She still thought.

Amina shook her head at the words.
“There is no need to apologize.” There was nothing wrong with performing an action for another, certainly nothing that needed to be apologized for. It was Amina’s choice to act how she did. She would have been in the wrong not to, she would have needed to apologize if she did not offer the aid. “Perhaps in the future you can learn to ride them, and feed on animals more accustomed to being used as food."  Though Amina did not understand why horses were not commonly used since they were easily tamed. It seemed to her both cow and horse could be used equally for riding and for food, if the cow were bred differently.

Well, this was not her world. Humans made it what it was, and they decided the fiends known as cats were to be domesticated and pampered, whilst the raccoon was to be killed. Amina was, needless to say, not a cat angel. Feathers.
"You will have a very long life. There will be much you can do to impact this world.” It came as an afterthought, without much consideration for what Juliette could do. Set on a path to good and non-harm, perhaps she could do a lot with her life.

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« Reply #24 on: January 16, 2014, 02:29:11 am »
She hadn’t come across many other vampires since her own transformation, but from the way she was treated by other people, she could judge herself based off of why they judged. If it hadn’t been for Amina, years later she may have become lost in her thirst and completely submitted to it. It was a shame that the harder she tried to abstain, the more lustful and vicious she became. There was a majority of vampires who did let go of their human need and feelings. They saw themselves as weak with them, and perhaps in a way, holding onto those human emotions was a weakness, but perhaps there was some way to change that.

Juliette looked to Amina as she replied. The vampire tilted her head and watched, as the sky in the distance behind the angel seemed to transform into a watercolor of red extend into purple near the horizon. “I suppose you are right, I am immortal now.” She could feel the cold dripping from her hair down her neck, and straightened her back against the tree so she wouldn’t feel it trickle down. Amina’s words echoed for a moment with the vampire. She could not make up for the pain she caused other people by simply feeling bad about it forever. That human part of her could go away.

“I think I will do that.” Juliette said, “At least I will try to.” She smiled some as she made that promise to herself, “Maybe after this journey, I can find a way.” It would be challenging, she had been sheltered her whole life before this, but that was nothing compared to the many years ahead. Instead of wanting to die, she needed to create something that she could live for. The vampire smiled at a thought she had and looked towards Amina, “And you can be my winged horse hunter.” A jest of course, but maybe angels didn’t joke much.




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« Reply #25 on: January 16, 2014, 02:36:09 am »
Some angels joked. Amina did not, so the jest went over her head, “No,” she denied the possibility with a bemused expression, “I will return home,” that was the truth. When this was over, she’d leave this world again. There was the possibility her path and Juliette’s would cross again, but Amina did not truly see it happening.

This job would get done. Amina would return. Time would fly by, and she would come down to Earth for removal jobs again. The chances of her encountering Juliette in this vast world, when she came to do a job, were slim.
“You will find someone else to aid you.” Or she could start up a farm. She would have to hire humans to work it during the daylight hours, but that wouldn’t be too hard, would it?

Perhaps for a while, she and one of the other companions could work together.
“We must wake them now and continue on. I am sorry you did not get much rest.” Again, her ignorance. She imagined Juliette needed some amount of sleep, for she always acted as if she did.

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« Reply #26 on: January 16, 2014, 02:50:51 am »
‘Well of course not.’ The blunt denial of Juliette’s false suggestion was almost amusing, but the vampire was just happy to have her thirst quenched. She ran a wet hand through her tangled hair and smirked. Amina wasn’t the most pleasant person, but there was something calming about her. It would be nice to have someone like that after the angel returned home. The future would worry about itself. Isn’t that what Matthew said?

Amina prompted Juliette to help her wake the rest of the group, and she apologized for her lack of sleep. The vampire’s small smile widened and she shook her head, “It’s alright. I don’t sleep.” She said, standing and stretching from being in a curled up position. She leaned down to tighten the laces on her boots, and then squeezed some of the water out of her skirts. “Not anymore at least.” The vampire was glad. There was no telling the nightmares she could have if she did sleep.

Juliette turned to go wake the others as the sun slowly began to peek from behind the horizon. She kneeled the Wizard and gently shook him. Juliette would need his help to endure the sun if it decided to stop raining.

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« Reply #27 on: January 16, 2014, 03:57:11 am »
Travel had been quick, but they had not been able to make it to the next town. Again, they rested, and again, Amina took night shift. The fire flickered. It had stopped raining enough to make the creation of a fire possible, and it lasted. Amina watched it flicker, casting shadows, ever attentive.

The revelation that Juliette didn’t need to sleep shouldn’t have surprised her, but it did. No good with small talk, or even conversation, Amina still pretended that she was alone in the night. The nagging fact that she wasn’t did consume her mind now and then, as frustrating as the sounds of locust.
‘It shouldn’t be so bothersome.’ Every other night had been endured in peaceful silence.

Somehow, it was different.
‘Just be quiet. The others need to sleep.’ Though they did not seem easily disturbed. Or else they pretended that they were not. 

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« Reply #28 on: January 17, 2014, 05:40:42 am »
The trees seemed taller every night, and Juliette shrunk with the rest of the earth. She could no longer lay awake pretending she was someone who slept like the rest. The moon was bright tonight anyway; the clouds had finally cleared out of the way, and the rain had let up for the night. Juliette lay on her back with her arms folded behind her head as she contemplated the night before. Today had been so much better travel-wise. She wasn’t holding back any sudden movements, nor snapping at the others when asked if she were all right. Today she was all right. She glanced to Amina, alight in the flicker of the fire. While the angel glowed in its embers, Juliette seemed to impersonate the shadows and gray wisps of smoke.

She thought about passing the time by trying her luck at hunting animals, but the horse had been more than enough to satisfy her for a number of days. There was no need to waste what could be food later. Amina was quiet, a steady guardian at her post with no attempt to busy herself. Juliette, in the meantime, raked her hand through her hair and began to plait it to the side in boredom.

The world was a different place with these new senses. It was a world she’d never been to and yet had known was there all along, one she had staggered into in sorrow and confusion and fear and now hope. A world she now thought would both make her into the woman she knew she could become and turn her back into the girl she had once been.

“Moon’s nice.” She mused, voice quiet. Amina was nearby, so speaking loudly wasn’t necessary. The quiet, unusual, was not as bearable as other nights. She tied the end of her braid with a loose piece of string from her dress. Juliette lifted her arm to point to the sky, “How long would it take you to fly to the nearest star?” She smiled a little to the angel, “Must be nice and convenient for you to fly. Guess we kind of slow you down.” Even if Amina didn’t feel like talking, Juliette was glad to be distracted by the stillness.

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« Reply #29 on: January 17, 2014, 05:53:57 am »
Amina heard Juliette’s comment. ‘Oh dear.’ Small talk. Amina struggled with every day conversation. Speaking to fill the air with noise was a strange habit of humans, and anything that had once been human, perhaps.

Amina contemplated, not thinking of star in the same way as Juliette. The star that was closest was the only one not seen right then.
“From this point,” Amina tried to estimate, “Assuming I merely flew,” she could shift between dimensions, a talent only available to her with wings. It was how she had shifted to Earth from Heaven, and how she would shift back when the job was done. “Perhaps half an hour, maybe a little longer.”

The star Proxima Centauri, one yet to be discovered and named, was the second-closest star. It would take Amina over two years to fly there, but even that she did not consider long.
“It is true you slow me down, but I am required to be here,” she answered, “so I am moving at the proper speed.” If she were to be moving faster, she would be elsewhere. Everything was that simple.

Then, she asked,
“What brought you to this venture?” For she did not understand that about Juliette, and had not understood it when they first met.